1-26-19

Today I walked for an hour. Stupid me paused my workout and continued to walk. When I realized, I was way over a mile.  So, at the end of my work out it said I'd walked 2 miles. Boo. That's not true.
Lol. My normal slow pace is about 19 min a mile. So, I probably did 3.5. Either way I'm proud. Glad to be able to get outside on January 25th and walk. Still battling this weight. I may not make my 6lb goal for the month, but at least I'm halfway there. Feb. 1 starts Friday. Hopefully, since I'm broke I'll eat better this week. (No fast food or junk food at ball games.)

Happy last week of January.

1-21-19

So glad to have the day off. Last week was so hectic and this week ahead will be the same, so I'm glad for the day to reflect and rest. I had a great weigh in this morning! I passed a goal that I have had for several years. It only took forever to reach it. I just need to stay below that line permanently. Now, I still have a long way to go to meet my 80lb goal, but this is an encouraging step for me. I've actually felt like dancing all morning!
This picture was from yesterday morning. I like it anyway!

1-11-19

What a long, busy week! I'm so glad for Friday night, lounging in my bed with my girls. It's raining out as I lay here, trying to stay awake until an acceptable bedtime for a 38 year old single. Lol.

I've been good to document my food this week, but the busyness of the week made the healthy eating a challenge. I count it good if there was no weight gain, but somehow I've got to figure out healthy and busy. 

1-16-19

Try. Fail. Try again. Fail. Try again. Success.
Try. Fail. Try again. Fail. Try again. Success.
Try. Fail. Try again. Fail. Try again. Success.

This journey in my life is definitely a dance. Step forward, step back, step forward, step back. It often takes a while to get to a new dance space because of the back and forth.
Usually at this point I'm done, but this time I dont want to stop here. I want to keep dancing. I want to keep up the journey.
I need support. Especially when it comes to eating and changing my mindset. I find ways to exercise and I usually enjoy it, but this food battle is tough. Its just so tasty and it's so much work to try to eat healthy.
I know it will be worth it.
I'm choosing to look for small victories, not look at the big picture that can seem insurmountable, and keep dancing.

💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃

1-9-19

Today, the scales didn't leave me feeling destroyed. In fact, I was the closest I've been to my original goal through Noom than I have been since I started in September. It certainly made a good start to the day and it made me feel good about myself, which is something of an anomaly to me. Not really sure how it happened, but I'm taking the win!
My Noom group coach asked me how I celebrate the small victories. I honestly didn't know how to answer. Celebrations in my life usually involve food. If you read this how do you celebrate your small victories?
I ate a Buddha Bowl at lunch vegan friendly and gluten free. It was on sale at Kroger the other day, so I thought I'd give it a try. It was pretty good. This one had cauliflower, sweet potatoes, broccoli, brussel sprouts, a special sauce (something asian) and chickpeas. I should learn to make my own. Although I'd rather some meat be involved (lol butchers daughter 🤷‍♀️.)

1-7-19

I fully intended to post yesterday, but back to school, Bunco, and a sad National Championship Game showing for my Alabama team kept me busy.
I started strong, eating a light breakfast, a yummy salad at lunch, then I lost all self control at dinner. When I'm tired or when I'm in a social setting saying no to food is hard. The scale showed that this morning. I've got a basketball game tonight so there will not be healthy foods available again. This journey is definitely a battle. I'm not giving up though. I will keep trudging along. I won't let my setbacks set me back for long. Time to find breakfast and get moving!
Its game day! I get to do one of my favorite things today. Coach basketball, looking forward to it!

1/6/19

When you weigh in daily you see lots of ups and downs. It's hard to not let yourself get disappointed. Especially when you made good choices the day before. Today was one of those days, but one thing I've learned since I started the program I've been using since September weight fluctuates and I cant give up. Tomorrow is a new day and back to work I go, so hopefully a daily routine will help.

Lunch after church. Heard a good reminder that I am more than a conqueror because of Jesus. Good reminder for me that with His help, I can do this. 

Jan. 5 2019

Getting back into blogging.
Setting a new goal.
I've been working on losing weight pretty much forever. However, after losing my mom last year to stupid cancer, and after almost a year of grieving, I am committing to reach this goal.
I actually started using Noom back in September. With this program I've lost close to 30 lbs, but financially I can't continue. So, I've decided to keep a log and I'm gonna keep it here for the world to see.
My goal is to lose 80lbs by the end of the year. If my calculations are correct that would mean I need to lose a little less than 7lbs a month. That doesnt seem as overwhelming or scary to break it down into more attainable goals.
I am not naive. I know how hard it is. I know how inconsistent I am. Nonetheless, this is something I need to do.
A little at a time. Changing my mind, change my habits, changing my life.
I'd love encouragement along the way, now I just need to have the courage to publish this post.
Here I am:
(After my 2.5 mile morning walk)